It’s been 17 years since I became a Stay-at-Home Ogre. You’d think doing a bang-up job for almost two decades would be long enough for me to have silenced the critics. Clearly, that is never ever going to happen. My wife continues to get shit from her family that I “need to get a job.” I have a job. Two, actually. This newsletter and my real job, which is to take care of my kids and to cook/clean/be there when they need it.
This article is not for my wife’s family. It’s for you, my fellow Stay-at-Home parents, whether you be male or female. If you made this choice of your own free will (I’ll elaborate on that presently), you’re doing what’s right for you and don’t let anyone tell you differently.
This article is also for you, the “feminist” reader who thinks women shouldn’t BE Stay-at-Home moms. You seem to have missed the part of feminism where you get to choose. That’s the point. Being a Stay-at-Home mom is a choice. Respect it.
And for you, the “manly” reader who thinks men shouldn’t be Stay-at-Home dads under any circumstances. That’s woman’s work? You cannot comprehend what masculinity is until you have devoted your life to raising a child.
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There are three reasons I am a SAH Ogre:
We couldn’t afford daycare - Or rather, we could have, but it would have been my entire paycheck. Mind you, this was just one kid at the time and before we knew Jordan was autistic. Childcare for two? And one of them special needs? The price would have been astronomical.
But even before that, we thought about it. Why the fuck would I work fulltime to pay my entire salary to have someone raise my kid(s)? That didn’t make any sense. Better for me to stay home and do it myself. So I did.Mrs. Ogre had the job with much better benefits and far more potential - I worked in retail as a manager. I was good at it, but I didn’t love it. It paid OK but there wasn’t a lot of room for growth. I was not cut out for upper management. Too much traveling and it was always a struggle with this or that store manager.1
Mrs. Ogre had a job that allowed for a lot of growth and her benefits were vastly superior, including a pension. It didn’t make sense for her to quit. It made all the sense for me to leave the workforce, though.I was, and continue to be, a better fit for the role - I love my wife. She is an amazing mother and our children adore her. She is, however, not very good at housekeeping. Her mother, for some reason, did not teach her how to cook or clean.
I, on the other hand, have been cooking since I was maybe eight? And I’m very good at it. I taught Anastasia how to cook and she’s taken to it like a duck to water.
I also know how to scrub the apartment from top to bottom until it shines, courtesy of years in retail. My wife has not cleaned a toilet in 20 years and we’re both happy with this arrangement because she’s terrible at it.
Also, Mrs. Ogre cannot deal with isolation and being a SAH is extremely isolating. Spending hours alone with no one but a crying baby is unbearably lonely and stressful if you’re not psychologically built for it. Not everyone is cut out for that life. Women are not “naturally” able to handle it because they’re women. That’s old-timey stupid sexism. Some can, some can’t. There’s no shame in it any more than not being able to deal with large crowds or the sight of blood. My wife could not handle the isolation. It’s not part of who she is. But I could, so I did. I loved not being around people all day. It appealed to my not-so-inner introvert.
Stay-at-Home Parents of the world, unite!
Now, for you, my fellow SAHs, you may have completely different reasons. Maybe you feel a household needs one parent at home. Maybe you feel compelled by traditional gender roles (not tradwives. I’ll get to that). Maybe you, too, decided that you didn’t want to pay someone to raise your kids.
The important thing is that you made that choice and you did it for you (and your kids). Don’t let anyone tell you that you’re doing the wrong thing. Fuck’em. They don’t get to tell you how to live your life.
At the same time, some of you, especially the men, may be SAHs because you can’t find work. That’s rough and I’m sorry you’re having a hard time. But never, not for one fucking second, let anyone make you feel less than for taking care of your kids. It may not have been a deliberate choice but you’re doing it and it’s important. Take pride in that shit while you have the opportunity.
If you get a job next month or next year, this is time you get to take care of your child. Let no one and nothing take that accomplishment away from you. You stepped up instead of crawling into a mancave or a bottle. The men of generations before us rarely engaged in raising children. They were conditioned not to and that was a loss for all of us. You have the chance to do better. Take it and run. Your kids will never forget it.
Come on, ladies, leave your fellow Moms alone!
For my feminist friends, I was dismayed and, frankly, disappointed, years ago to learn that there is a cohort among you that frowns upon Stay-at-Home moms. It’s not a dominating cohort and I cannot for the life of me tell you which wave it’s from but it exists and, seriously, what the actual fuck?
Like me, there are going to be women who have no particular interest in a career outside the home. Been there, done that. It was not fulfilling in any way whatsoever. But being a homemaker? Raising my kids? Giving them the tools they need to thrive? That has been the most fulfilling job I have ever had. I’m more proud of my work as a parent than anything I ever did or could ever do in retail. Even my work as a writer, which I love and am immensely proud of, doesn't come close to the joy being a SAH brings me.
I know I’m not the only one to feel this way so why is this a problem for women to choose this path? To condemn them is…kind of fucking gross, honestly. The entire point of feminism was to give women the freedom to live life however they wanted, not how you think they should live. If that comes off as mansplaining, well, feel free to explain how scolding women who choose to be SAH moms is feminist. I’m all ears.
Now, tradwives are a completely different story. That’s not freedom. That’s slavery to a misogynist who abuses you. On the surface, it’s similar, but we know that tradlife is not about choice and freedom. It’s about keeping women powerless and trapped. It’s literally propaganda for the patriarchy. You want to savage that? Have at it. I’ll be happy to join in. But leave regular SAH moms alone.
Bro, changing diapers is gay!
On the other hand, my disappointment in that cohort of feminists pales in comparison to my loathing for the far larger, louder, and intensely more stupid cohort of “men” who think child-rearing is for women.
It is all but guaranteed when a MAGA manly man notices that my bio says I’m a SAH parent, they will have a meltdown. It’s impossible for them to resist calling my masculinity into question. They’re programmed like robots. It’s happened so many times my response is almost equally programmed.
I laugh at them.
I’m being called “unmanly” by someone who is afraid to change diapers. Who thinks brushing their daughter’s hair would make them “gay.” Who thinks holding a baby and bottle feeding them is a sign of weakness.
These are not serious people.
The most rage I have ever induced in some of these losers has been from the ones who are actually fathers. They mock me for “letting my wife go to work while I sit around the house.” I asked them how many times they got up in the middle of the night to take care of the baby when it was crying. How many times did they clean up the puke or poop? Once? Never? Left all of that to their wife? Dumped all of the hardest parts of being a parent on her while they slept? What kind of fucking loser, what kind of MAN doesn’t take care of his own crying baby?
Oooooohhhh…the rage.
Because, you see, a real man doesn’t hesitate to do the hard work. A real man doesn’t pawn it all off on his wife, who usually has a job, too. A real man wants to be a part of his kid’s life, even as a baby. But that’s “woke” and “kinda gay” according to men who will never have kids or whose kids will grow up to hate them. Enjoy that life of regret, losers.
Why is this so complicated?
I have been there almost every day for my kids. I picked up an extra kid eight years ago, Lila, the daughter of our next-door neighbor, Claudia. I’ve been there when she needed me, too.
One of the kids was sick? I was there to take care of them so Mom could go to work without worry. Doctor’s appointment? I got you. Half day? Someone is home to keep an eye on them.
I’ve helped them with their homework before their moms came home from work and had dinner ready. I’ve chaperoned their field trips. I was PTA president at their school for four years.2
Forgot to bring lunch? I’ll run it over. Feeling sick? I’ll come get you. Had a period misadventure? I’ll be right over.
I’ve been there when the kids needed me at school as soon as they needed me dozens of times over the years. Sometimes multiple times in the same month. Something I would not have been able to do if I had been working in a store or in an office.
They grew up knowing that I would always be there if anything went wrong and I would always be there when they got home. Sometimes with a mug of hot chocolate on a cold day or a little snack if they were hungry. That kind of stability is beyond measure for a developing mind.
To deny them that because I’m “supposed” to have a job is the height of ignorance and I really shouldn’t have to keep explaining it after all these years. My bio kids are thriving. Lila has overcome substantial difficulties because our family was there to support her and her mom. I don’t even want to imagine where she would be if she hadn’t adopted me as her surrogate father and the rest of us as her bonus family.
Being a SAH is a privilege and one we had to pay dearly for. We’re not drowning financially anymore but we were for a very long time. When the kids were babies, there was a lot of rice and beans and pasta and chicken legs on the menu because it was inexpensive. But it was worth it for our children to have a parent at home looking after them. No one can take that away from me and shame on anyone who tries.
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I was a DM in training for 6 months and hated it So. Fucking. Much. I gave it a shot but it just wasn’t for me.
Four eternally long years. I changed the PTA bylaws so no one could ever serve for four years again. Why would I inflict that on someone else?